Do YOU like talking to your ex? The one you used to share your love with and care for. The one who gave you all the love and support you need. Do YOU like talking to your ex? I....dont. Cause i miss him dearly. And knowing that i cant have him anymore sucks. Its suckier when hes with a girl you dont like. And you can be happy for him cause you dont like her. He tells you his life is going good and that it rarely happens. And instead of feeling happy for him or glad that hes better off now. You feel like crap. You feel like crap because your life is no where near going good. You start to compare and realise its just not the same without him. He adds that little bit of glitter to your life and its enough to make your day..You want that glitter back but you know..you know that glitter belongs to someone else now. Someone who doesnt deserve it at all. Sigh..you do like talking to your ex? I do..but i cant..cause when i do, i no longer feel happy. I feel sad. Sad that what we had once is long gone..:(
Sunday, January 16, 2011
8:49 PM
Sometimes lifes just not fair. You need to have the looks to fit in.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
10:13 PM
Im down with stomach flu. Yes im recovering but i feel very very weak and bloated.
Heres the real truth. Im stressed...im superbly stressed over every single thing. Its so demoralising to hang out with my friends. I worked hard i really did. But i failed. Im just plain STUPID! Sigh.
Clarence's nephew Benjamin made my day. I went to his place to play with his dog n saw his nephew. And...haha hes sooo cute! We were both shy of each other. Sat at the corners of the couch. And communicated like that. Hahaha and then later he kept asking for me when i left. Haha..awwww! Kids really just have a way of making your day..
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
1:51 AM
For the first time ever, im saying this and really really really meaning it from the bottom of my heart...i put on a happy face on the outside, but deep inside im truly crying my heart out cause it hurts that much.
I worry all the time. About you. Dating other girls. Getting to know girlsss. Crushing on someone else. Getting hurt..emotionally and physically. Hating the NS life. Not being happy or satisfied with anything. People pissing you off. You feeling upset. You not seeing the doctor when you are sick. Speeding. Overdosage of barons and still not getting drunk. Yes i worry about you all the time. I wish you were here right now with me. Cause i need you badly. And also so that i can take care of you and know that you are alright. I wish i had the power...the power to turn my thoughts into reality.
1:09 AM
I tried running away. And i did for a while. I guess the phrase you can run but you cant hide really does apply in reality. I ran and ran as far as i could, played with fire knowing the risk, and you managed to find me in the end. Cause i couldnt find a good hiding place. God bless me.
Maybe im with the wrong group of friends..I sacrificed my Saturdays to work towards my 3 goals and it backfired!
Its so unfair. How some people have the body, looks, the brain and a generally good life. What do i have? NOTHING! Im not preety or anything, i definitely dont have the brains and my life generally sucks. This is sooo unfair! Screw my life and stab a knife through me cause i think id be the happiest person to die.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
11:16 PM
I was watching the just the way you are video by bruno mars. Omg so sweet! And then i looked back and wondered why i was so stupid before. You never told me any of those. No you dont HAVE to tell me that to be a good boyfriend. It just made me wonder. Did you even love me proper? Did you ever appreciate anything about me? I guess ill never know the answers to these questions. And even if i do meet you again, id never have the guts to ask you either. Anyhoos heres the song.
Oh her eyes, her eyes Make the stars look like they're not shining Her hair, her hair Falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful And I tell her every day
Yeah I know, I know When I compliment her She wont believe me And its so, its so Sad to think she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay I say
When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are And when you smile, The whole world stops and stares for awhile Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are
Her nails, her nails I could kiss them all day if she'd let me Her laugh, her laugh She hates but I think its so sexy
She's so beautiful And I tell her every day
Oh you know, you know, you know Id never ask you to change If perfect is what you're searching for Then just stay the same
So don't even bother asking If you look okay You know I say
When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are And when you smile, The whole world stops and stares for awhile Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are
The way you are The way you are Girl you're amazing Just the way you are
When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are And when you smile, The whole world stops and stares for awhile Cause girl you're amazing Just the way you are
7:31 PM
Its 2011 already! How fast time flies by. Turning 20 this year and im not ready. I still feel like a kid. I dont feel adultish at all. So maybe this is a wake up call. Time to get more serious and matured. Hmm okay ill have to work towards it. So 2010 has ended and 2011 is here. I guess ive to let go of 2010s past and move on. Ive to let go of him, let go of my lazy cells, let go of the rotten attitude in me(or whats left of it) andd lead a better life.
How i wish i had the power to write out my life. As in make things happen. Id wish i was dating a vampire(LOLS) and id wish for a happy ending. And whenever i want any drama, id write it in and the minute i think its enough, i can just write a happy ending to end the drama.
My resolution for 2011 : to be a better person.
The Dance
Christine Francis
1 july 1991
Catholic
Undergraduate
Nanyang Polytechnic
Dip in Biomedical Engineering
Adores
red
teddy bears
chocolates
shopping
online tv shows
arts - drama, dancing
music
my friends
books
