Thursday, December 31, 2009

12:44 AM

The bumper cars and viking ship was F.U.N!
Love you guys!

Im sorry..
It hurts that im being so mean to you.
It hurts being stuck up to you.
It hurts seeing you not happy.
But what was i to do?
Laugh while i got insulted?
Its only human to retaliate or snap back.
I still love you.
Its just that...by hurting you...
I ended up getting hurt in the process.

2010 is arriving in lesser than 24 hours.
Wow whee!



Monday, December 28, 2009

10:03 PM

God given gift...i got you back.
:)

YOU!...im not longer crippled by your loss.

The rest of you....
I love YOU.

Met daddy today.
My role model.
Everything i want to be.
Hes the most respectable person in my life.
I love him dearly.
And i want to be just like him.
I am turning out like him.
Just need to work on myself here and there.
I love you very very much daddy!



Sunday, December 27, 2009

10:52 PM




9:50 PM

I just want to curl up and die..
I mean seriously..
What have i allowed myself to become?
=(



Thursday, December 24, 2009

11:58 PM



MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!



11:51 PM

Went to Issac's Christmas party yesterday.
Seriously one of the BEST parties ive been to..
Super super fun.
Oh hahaha incidents i think none of us will forget.
The drinks..8am plus...
The briyani was awesomee too!
What made the party a bomb was spending time with my close ones..
Love you guys alott! =)



Tuesday, December 22, 2009

12:30 AM

Went to town with Vincent today evening.
Yay we had alottt of fun...
Walked around...
Dinnered
And cam whored like crazy.
Oh our little visit to the toysrus was fun too.
Hehe.
Miss you dude!



Sunday, December 20, 2009

11:20 PM


Love Story by Taylor Swift
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wRkoGKQ8qQ







10:31 PM

Would you jump off the cliff with me if i asked you to?

Three ways i wanna die.
1. I want to bleed to death.
2. I want to jump off a cliff and drown.
3. Get hit by a car.



10:28 PM

Went shopping with Nessa yesterday.
It was fun.
We both had our moments.
Haha..
Bumped into Cass and Shi En at Bugis.

I took a risk today.
And it was worth it. =)



Saturday, December 19, 2009

12:47 AM

Brenda is also going overseas...
Although she will be back on Monday,
Ill miss her!
Have a safe trip love! =)

Yay!
Christmas shopping with Nessa in lesser than 24 hours!!!
=)



Friday, December 18, 2009

9:17 PM


For all the 'crappy' and unforgetable chats we've had together,
F
or being my school mate,
And for being such an awesome friend,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANESH!



Thursday, December 17, 2009

11:35 PM

Yikes...
Okay so Edward left for Europe on Tuesday.
He will be gone till the 30th.
Argh how i wish i snucked into his bag and tagged along.
Lucky boy.
Anyways, have a safe trip you!

WHERES MY SELF DISCIPLINE?
Argh...
So disappointed with myself.



Wednesday, December 16, 2009

9:05 PM


Dedicating this song and post to you.
If you ever do come to my blog...
I hope you come to this entry...
Cause this is exactly how i feel about you.


"I Will Always Love You"

If I
Should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go
But I know
I'll think of you every step of
the way

And I... Will always Love you, oohh
Will always Love you You
My darling you
Mmm-mm

Bittersweet
Memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So good-bye
Please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you
You need

And I... Will always love you I... Will always love you
You, ooh

[Instrumental / Sax solo]

I hope
life treats you kind
And I hope
you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy
and happiness
But above all this
I wish you love

And I... Will always love you I... Will always love you
[Repeat]
I, I will always love
You....
You
Darling I love you
I'll always
I'll always Love You..
Oooh
Ooohhh



8:54 PM


I had to do it didnt i?
Argh...
I went to Mr you know who's facebook.....
And....i saw....
I saw his face again..
It took my mind back to the past..
Where the memories lie...
Untouched....
How i wish i could go back in time..
Just once...
How i wish i could live those memories once more...
No...how i wish things were different.
The best few days of my life...

I love you.
Always have and always will.



Tuesday, December 15, 2009

8:35 PM

The weather is currently...
rainy...gloomy...
windy and cool....
I likeeee!



1:54 AM


Last Christmas i gave you my heart,
But the very next day you gave it away.
This year to save me from tears,
Ill give it to someone special.

=)



Sunday, December 13, 2009

7:26 PM

I feel like something is missing.
But i dont know what.
And...my heart feels empty...
Sigh....why?



1:18 PM


So many movies i want to watch!

Ninja Assassin
The Storm Warriors
Sherlock Holmes
Avatar
Cirque Du Freak:The Vampire's assistant
Did you hear about the Morgans?
The fourth kind

Quick! Book me fast k :)



12:05 AM

Met Nessa and Ishaan for dinner on Thursday.
Haha that night was definitely one to remember luh.
We were all 'high' on nothing.
Haha!

Watched New Moon yesterday night.
I loved it.
But for those who yet to read the book,
You will be lost.
It was also my friend's birthday on the 11 of December.
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY LAWRENCE!

Today(12 dec 09), met the clique.
Oh yes i did!
Haha..
Uhmmm we talked things out.
Settled issues..
And hopefully, we are back to normal again.
I know i am.
=)

I hate my sister. Acting like you bloody hell dont want me in the family. NBCB! I mean if you are pissed with someone, dont effing go to the extent of keeping your damn mouth shut and showing attitude! Like what the fuck is going through that brainless head of yours huh? Seriously! 24 years old and yet you are acting like a 10 year old. Grow up can? I'd do the rational thing and come confront you like my friends and i do but noooooo i already KNOW you. Nothing to assume cause i grew up with you. You will just bloody ignore me. What else can i do but stand back and bear all your shit? I HATE YOU!

Sometimes i wish i had an elder sibling whos more there for me. More supportive of me. Someone i CAN talk to about things. This is why my friends are my family. Its them and only them who i talk to about stuff. They know me better than my own sis. Let that act as a slap on your face!

Damn pissed luh. Theres an effing insect in my room. And my sis is occupying the hall. So where do i go to? The kitchen. Yes. I AM sitting in the kitchen on the floor in the dark and crying. Tried going down to cry for a while. But guess what? A fucking banglah was fucking following me! CB! I SWEAR IM GONNA CALL THE POLICE ON YOU THE NEXT FUCKING TIME YOU BOTHER TO MOVE THAT GOD DAMNED LEGS OF YOURS TO FOLLOW ME AROUND. I SWEAR I WILL DO IT! I SWEAR! I SWEAR! I SWEAR!

Oh and thank you people for cheering me up. Really helps when theres someone there to comfort you when you are down. =)

And thank you Brenda and Ishaan for guiding me through finding a solution to free my room of the insect. And also for being there for me when i was really really really really really scared.
I love you people! :D

Today,(still referring to the Saturday), i grew up.
I learnt a few lessons.
3 to be in particular: N/A
D/D
A/L first
and
Just C each other even if we intend to kill each other in the end.
=)

Okay this is a long post...im off to bed.
Nights!



Friday, December 11, 2009

6:44 PM

I wanna change for the better...



Thursday, December 10, 2009

7:01 PM

Somehow....parents always know..



Wednesday, December 9, 2009

10:14 PM

I learnt nothing in school today..

Met Divya to study after school.
She was late to meet me at BK...
So i walked around...
Ishaan found me at Starbucks..
He was waiting for Niveda.
And she wasnt there yet.
So we were like waiting for each other...
Haha!
Thing is Divya and Niveda knows each other.
So....i told Divya to come over to Starbucks..
Heres the funny part..
Ishaan and Niveda planned to meet and Divya and i planned to meet.
Instead, Ishaan and i sat at a two seater table and Divya and Niveda sat at a different two seater table.
And we were having our own conversations for like an hour!
Hahaha...

Then we parted to who we should have been with in the beginning.
Divya and i studied at BK...
Talked about things that excite us...
And yeahhh while going home, we bumped into Prasad.
So we were talking for like 40 mins?

Then i rushed back
Cause i was learning to cook.
Thank you mummy for being so patient and for being a fun cook teacher. =D

Arghhh okay i got to mug now.
See ya!



Tuesday, December 8, 2009

11:45 PM

Funny inside jokes:

Math teacher : The number to scare people is.....: pi!




Random girl: Oh still got ten more minutes...
Dephanie repeats to You Wei: I heard her say "Still got ten more minutes"(in the deep russian accent)
We laugh..
I say: lets go tell them "Ten minutes is over...the room is all yours"(in the deep russian accent)
Haha!

Dont get the jokes?
I see...
I did mention they are inside jokes right?



1:53 PM

la galetter des rois



1:27 PM

Your princess bitch :)



1:27 PM

Just finished my french common test.
O.M.G!
Gonna fail lahhhhh....
Dont know how to do anything also..

Later got computer programming test....
That one also i can predict...i wont know how to do anything..
So basically, im gonna flunk my computer programming and french common tests..
My GPA this semester is gonna go DOWWWNNNN..

DAMN IT!

At least princess bitch cheers me up. :D



Sunday, December 6, 2009

11:55 PM

You know what i find uber frustrating?
Having to study and mug during December...
Having to go back to school..
Knowing that its supposed to be holidays already..
Knowing that Christmas is around the corner..
I just cant seem to concentrate.
And ive got alott of work to do...
But...bleahhh
Im not doing any of it...
I just want to go out and have fun fun fun.
HELLPPP!

OH MY GOD!
Im stressed...
Oh sooo stressed!
That....i cried!
Sigh...

Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress! Stress!
GO AWAYYYYYYYYYY!



Saturday, December 5, 2009

1:55 PM


Oh man...im stressed beyond words....
For the next two weeks,
Im gonna blog only if i have time in school or if there is anything really important that i dont want my blog to miss on...
Till then ill be uber busy mugging hard for the exams...
Im worried but ive got to remain strong and finish the fight!
I know i can do it...
Gahhh okayy panicking...
Wish me luck..
See ya!



11:41 AM

I literally spent the entire day out yesterday....9am-12.15am!
After school, i went to Ikea in Queenstown.
Couldnt find what i wanted.
Met S.
Might be going to town later tonight with S to go in search of the most important thing right now..
Balls!
Trained back to Sembawang to meet the clique..or how Bings would say...the hommies.
Me, Brenda, Nessa, Ishaan, Edward and Satheesh met up.
Bought drinks and chips and headed down to Sembawang park.
Ordered pizza - Hawaiian, Cheese supreme, Tandoori Chicken and BBQ Chicken.
The main reason for meeting was to celebrate the end of Edward's A levels.
We had a wholeeee lot of fun
And that was like the first time in sooo long since i had a good laugh.
I think its the same for the rest tooo...
We talked about nonsense and played games..
Haha the games were the super fun part though.
Truth or dare, chop chilli chop chop, ohm ohm chakee chakee and this game brenda intro-ed to us.
Ishaan did alot of crazy things to the guys.
Haha and Ishaan...see!
Im keeping my promise. =)
Yeah and then, it was serious business.
For some reason, none of us used the drinks yesterday.
Haha!...
Oh wells...



Friday, December 4, 2009

12:49 AM

Okay i hate this..
I hate having to get jealous all the time..
Arghhh
For how long can i keep this up?


OMGGGGG!
DONT GO!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DONT GO!



12:41 AM

Yesterday, was Karthig's birthday...
Happy 18th Birthday Karthig!



12:33 AM

Im disappointed...
But i still love you.

Theres really alott to say..



Wednesday, December 2, 2009

11:56 PM

Dinnered with Brenda today..
Then met S.
And then went home thinking about vampires...
Haha!

Thanks for standing by me when i had no one...=)
Now, its our turn to make people feel good.



Tuesday, December 1, 2009

9:46 PM

This is funny...
I didnt go to school yesterday..
Was sleeping when Dephanie and Joanna tried calling to check on me..
So naturally i didnt pick their calls up..
Hahahaha!
They thought someone kidnapped me or someone stole my handphone...
Dephanie wanted to ask my mentor for my house number to contact me..
Hahaha super funny!
But im touched..
Thanks ladies...=)

School today was bleahhhhhh
Tuesdays are always bad..
Longest day of the week andd well..
The lessons are boring.
Its a wonder how i managed to wake up so early in the morning for school
Just like what Deph said,
Its not about the Monday blues anymore...
Its soo yesterday..
Now...the in thing is the Tuesday blues...
LOL!

Trained back with Dom, Jo and Dom's friend.
Met Divya after that.
=)

Oh by the way..stalker on the loose...
SOMEONE IS STALKING MY BLOG!




12:41 AM

Sunday, met up with the clique.
Nessa, me, Ishaan, Bings, Shannon and Cass.
Too bad Brenda wasnt there..
Really felt like someone was missing.
We forced Ishaan to church.
Haha it was really nice having him there.
Really really nice.
And then we went to Northpoint to eat lunch.
Most of us had the briyani.
Haha...
Yeps...
Then i met Jess in the night for supper :P

Yesterday i didnt go to school.
Qoutes of the day
1: " i mISS U TO THE TIMES OF THE AGE I AM GONNA DIE" - Tow
2: "haha.. i miss u too" - make a guess :D
Haha they made my night man...

Its the 1st of dec!
24 more days to Christmas..
Only god knows how Christmas this year is gonna be..
Hope everythings gonna turn out fine..
But pushing the common worries aside,
Im already egg-cited!
Shopping for clothes, presents, decorations...
Putting up the Christmas tree...
Whoohooo!
Just that...i dont have the time.
Instead of being able to do all the little wonder chores of Christmas,
Im confined withing Yishun - Yio Chu kang,
My house - school,
STUDYING for the common tests...
Arghhh!

I took a stroll down memory lane yesterday night..
Last year during this time,
I was crying on my bed the whole day.
I didnt eat
I didnt smile
I couldnt breathe
I didnt even feel alive
Christmas songs mad me cry
I became a zombie

This year, the effect is sort of still here.
Christmas songs do make me sad
I dont cry now.
But i do tear a little...