holding on

Tuesday, December 28, 2010
1:05 AM

I had a dream that i was a vampire and omg i loveddd it! No i did not suck anyones blood unfortunately but i liked the fact that i was one. Hmmm..

Had an awesome time with Joanna, Dephanie and You Wei at East Coast today. It was a class BBQ luh. And thanks Gael for the gift. Christmas this year wasnt good at all for me.

RIP Hammy. I love you very very much. I hope i did the right thing and that your soul is in heaven now resting with the angels. Ill never forget you. :)

Which is more romantic? A red room or a deep purple one?

Friday, December 24, 2010
7:04 PM

Will i ever see your face again? It's hard to accept that all the happy memories collated over the years have been crushed just like that in just a little amount of time. I still love you with all of my heart no matter what.

11:49 AM

A lot of guys keeps asking for my number. A lot of them wants to go out with me. But you know what? I dont care. Really i dont. Im flattered yes but half the time, i feel pissed and annoyed. Cause sometimes i just want them to stop and leave me alone. No its not that im not interested in a relationship. Its just that i miss him sooo much and nothings gonna change that for a long long time. This is the 7th month and im no where near getting over you. Sigh.

11:41 AM

12 hours and 18 minutes more! :))

11:28 AM

Wednesday, December 22, 2010
3:25 AM

So Brenda and i were chatting and this was how the conversation went :
Brenda says:
then we eat budgety
hahaha overspend for xmas alr
Christine says:
hahaha yeahh me too
i only have 10 in my bank now
Brenda says:
wah.
that bad uh?!
Christine says:
haha yeahh...
i spent 44 on my hamsters
soo..yeah
haha
but the hamsters part is worth it luh
their fur feels nicer
Brenda says:
HAHAHHA
seriously?
Christine says:
haha yeahhh
Brenda says:
hahaha or is it like psychologically
get psycho-ed by the shop guy hahaha
Christine says:
hahaha noo
it stopped dropping and it just feels nicer
ahahaha
Brenda says:
more fluffier?
Christine says:
haha not fluffier..just idk..like smooter?
like u know when we use conditioner for our hair?
Brenda says:
ahahaha lol!
okayyyy
hahah
44 bucks
so expensive
better work man
if not go refund it
Christine says:
haha
Christine says:
actually no...its like 11 bucks cause ive gt 4 hamsters
haha
Brenda says:
anw im gonna go sleep soon, i'll see you tmr at 330 kk
hahaha but still......
Christine says :
okay
Brenda says :
hamster conditioner 11 bucks
human conditioner is like..
less than that
and hamster so small
Christine says :
hahaha true
Christine says :
but its more effective than human conditioner
il try using it one day
Brenda says :
if you bathe your hammie with our hair conditioner, i think 4 hamsters whole lifetime also cannot use finish
Christine says:
then ill grow a furry head
Brenda says :
hahaha omg
nooooooooo
Christine says:
hahahaha whyyy
Brenda says:
and furry everywhere!
Christine says:
nice what...new fashion
hahaha
Brenda says:
real fur coat
Christine says:
haha vhoohoo
Brenda says:
fur still okay. later grow more hair like those cartoon harry monster kind how
like those, only can see the eyes
and everything else is like..
a mop
or a bush
hahahaha
Christine says:
hahahahahaha
ill still be ur best friend right?
Brenda says:
howhowhow
Christine says:
no matter how furry i am?
Brenda says:
yeah
Christine says:
hahaha
Brenda says:
i'll shave you
:B
Christine says:
hahaha whatttt?!?!
hahahaha
Brenda says:
so fun!
i've always wanted to shave someone
Christine says:
or we can like dye my hair
Brenda says:
HEHE
Christine says:
haha why?!?!
Brenda says:
omg like halloween everyday!
hahaha
and you can keep warm like that
Christine says:
hahahaha
Brenda says:
then how to shower!
Christine says:
haha just shower luh
i bottle of shampoo a day

Brenda says:
or go swimming!
or sun tan!
Brenda says:
omggggggg.....
Christine says:
hahahhahaha!!!!
Brenda says:
hahahahahaha
i can imagine
so funny hahahahaha!
Christine says:
me being furry???
hahaha
Brenda says:
then you can hide your hamsters in your hair
Christine says:
ill call my furryself....furtine
hahahaha why would i hide my hamsters in my hair?!!?!?!
later they mate inside my hair!
Brenda says:
then after that when you wanna play w them just dig them out again
HAHAHAH
LOL!
furtine!!!
good what!
then got babies!
Christine says:
hahahaha in my hair?!?!?!!?
babies in my hair?:
Brenda says:
quite cool
you're like the walking nanny
or nursery
hahaha
Christine says:
omggg then like everywhere i walk....ill drop hamsters
and leave a trail
hahahahaha
Brenda says:
HHAHAHAHAHA
if you go clubbing then how
Brenda says:
hahahah hamsters everywhereeeeee!!!

ILY BABE! <3

3:18 AM

Okay so i promised a picture of my tree this year right? Here it is :)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010
11:18 PM

Omg i think these people are quite cute. And i like this drama. I wanna be in it too! ;) Tamil is starting to become fun. I regret not putting in effort to learn it in school. But i am picking it up now and im loving it. Seriously. Its like i finally LOVE being an indian. And i want an indian boyfriend too.

1:31 AM

Yesterday i spent five whole hours cleaning my room. It looks so much more cleaner and brighter now. :D

I THOUGHT i was done with my Christmas shopping. Butttt guess what? Im not! Arghh. Soooo many last minute gifts to get. Tsk tsk. Haha nevermind. Its still fun. :)

I have a feeling everyones skipping Christmas this year. Its just that the streets in town and like shopping malls and all arent very much decorated this year. Dont you think? Theres just no Christmas mood at all. I HAD it cause i thought or maybe just expected more. I miss the Christmas warmth i used to feel when i was a kid. Parties and guests and food and presents and FUN!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010
11:34 PM

'Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything u stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when u become the main source of her pain?' eminem.

11:09 PM

I envy caucasians. They can pull off any hair colour because of their skin colour. Like look at this :

You think an indian can pull this off?

Okay fine..its nice on her. So maybe i can pull this off. Who am i kidding? I cant pull this off! And caucasians with black hair looks good. But us asian women, its a norm. What about blonde? I like the ice blonde kinda colour..orrr idk the tanned kinda blone.

Anyways, i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEE Tyra Banks. Not only is she drop dead GORGEOURS, but i loveeee her personality as well. I wish i was her.

1:57 AM

Its funny how sometimes people you choose to close a door at in your life comes searching for you in the end. Within the past few days, four people(M, T, C, A) i chose to never again have anything with came to me. Wanting my friendship. Like so weird can? Cause we stopped talking not only cause of feuds but also cause i just didnt like them. And they were sort of telling me to forget the past cause we are already 19!
See, the thing is, i know where u guys are heading at. However, i cant help but to think so what? You did what you did. Till i forgive you, i wont be talking to you. IF i forgive you that is. You dont just enjoy ruining a persons life and then walk away and THEN come back saying forget it we are grown up. Darling you had an attitude there by the way. And i hated every bit of it.
Screwed up the Electronics paper just now. God help me. Cost accounting tomrrow. 4 down, 2 more to go. Nights!

Monday, December 13, 2010
11:50 PM

I wish i was a mind reader
I wish you had a blog
I wish we were more open then
Cause i'd definitely want to read your thoughts.

My heart still misses a beat everytime your name pops up.

11:06 PM

Bruno Mars - Grenade
Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

Baby love. Yes i will catch a grenade for ya cause thats exactly how much you mean to me. Ill love you till the very end. For now, just becareful with what you are handling. Ill do anything to make it alright again. Cant seem to get you out of my head.

Bombs and explosives reminds me of nothing but you.

10:56 PM

I realised i never did that post thats meant to go all jingles. So heres a belated one.
Its that time of the year again. Where snow is supposed to have already made its appearance and cinnamon is to fill the air. Yes, CHRISTMAS is just around the corner! The tree, bells, caroling, snow, cookies, presents, love, joy, fun and laughter with your loved ones.

Nice uh?!!??! No thats not my tree. WAHAHA! Ill upload a picture of my tree and decorations(maybe) soon luh.

Oh and by the way, Happy birthday NICOLE, JAMES, ROSHAN AND KISHAN! I love you all very very very much! :) <3

10:36 PM

So my maths paper turned out fine. Upset about that careless mistake though. Up next, Electronics aka the blood sucker.
Speaking of blood suckers, i sooo cannot wait for the exams to be over. Ive already planned it out. How i want to spend the next few days unwinding. I wanna get my Christmas shopping over and done with. Im done with the presents. Just need to get started on clothes.
And then theres a whole lot of Christmas movies i wanna sit down and watch. Black Christmas, The Grinch, The Christmas Carol. And then theres the normal ones. Love actually, Marley and me. AND THEN, im gonna download the tv series im IN LOVE WITH and watch Marathons.
Back to the blood sucker part, VAMPIRE DIARIES ANDDDDD TRUE BLOOD! Foooyoh! And then theres gossip girl and so on. Thanks Neeraj! Absolutely the BEST!

I know its a little dark and NO im not influenced by Twilight...but i LOVE vampires. If i can, id marry a Vampire. Damon Salvator from the Vampire Diaries is HAWTTT! No?

Yes..hard to believe aye? Ladies...HES MINE! MINE! MINE! MINE! This is where i turn all Gollum-ish from the lord of the rings.

11:47 AM

Ive the Maths Common Test later at 4pm. Guess what? IM NOT PREPARED! I mean i am but like im confused as to which formula i should be using for which question. They are all sooooooo similiar! Sigh..

Thursday, December 2, 2010
11:32 PM

Having the worst day of the week. I failed my paper and got rejected by someone i truly love. Having been dating around..but its like that one person made your day everyday..and no one else has come close to that yet. No one seems to be good enough..yet. When he didnt reply, i felt hurt. I wanted to hold my heart tightly with both hands to console it. I wanted to remove my heart so i dont feel the hurt...