holding on

2011-07-06T09:29:00.001+08:00

Blogging from work.
Work as in attachment.
I want a new skin.
Something white..
Hmmm

2011-04-04T13:35:00.002+08:00

On a serious note here. I think this is it. I screwed up and now no one can help. This is it. Shit scared but its my fault. Praying very very hard for a miracle to happen. Ive learnt my lesson and SWEAR i wont do it again. Sigh you know what..no point blogging luh...FUCK!

2011-03-17T13:40:00.001+08:00

Fuck luh. No mean just say no luh. Give me a long useless fucking lecture for what fuck?

FYP is a killer!

2011-03-16T10:54:00.002+08:00

Started year 3 last Monday with FYP(final year project). Two words..IT SUCKS! My project is the design and development of an electric muscle stimulator for pain management. Like WHAT THE FUCK LAH!?!? Ive to use electronics, microcontroller applications and computer programming. All of which i got D! Cant bloody do these modules and my school is trying to kill me. How sial? :( If i do well, my GPA can dgo up to 0.5. If i dont then i might as well drop out cause theres no chance for Uni already. No you know what? I should just drop out now cause i know which such a project, i already cannot make it into a uni. Sigh! So unhappy here. 12 weeks...1 week down. left with 11 more weeks to go. And its like detention here. Cant leave the classroom unless its break time.

Just got scolded twice today. Once cause i was late. Why was i late? Cause i didnt get enough sleep for the past 2 weeks or more. Decided to sleep in a bit. Seriously luh. I was practically falling asleep while giving tuition yesterday. Second time cause me being me, i panicked about being late or doing something wrong, i asked my friend to sign the attendance for me. My supervisor found out. Annndddd i got scolded. Bad day already. I miss Dephanie lots!

And right now, the only thing thats keeping me happy is Mr preety eyed boy. Cant wait to meet u later. :)

2011-02-15T00:04:00.002+08:00

Okay so yesterday was Valentines day. Late post much? Neways, i HAVE dated like a few guys after my last ex. But..although they were awesome awesome, i just didnt feel it for them. I dont know why. And i dont know if its true but the last guy i dated(obviously i broke his heart), told me he realised i dont know what love is. What its about. I gave some thought to it and thought to myself. Hmmm maybe it is true? Like i mean maybe thats why ive been rejecting every other guy ive dated and trust me..i dated ALOT after my ex. I think ive been hurt too much that i cant be hurt anymore and i probably lost it. Like now, when a guy does something sweet or hold my hand or tells me he loves me or something, I feel nothing. Like its just pain NOTHING. Which sucks. Arghh..

2011-02-08T00:59:00.002+08:00

OMGGGG. I...AM....SOOO....TIRED...I SWEAR I CAN SLEEP IN A PUDDLE OF MUD. Haha. Okay i couldnt think of anything better. Hmm. My week..both this and last has been SUPERBLY BUSYYYAAEE! Really. Sembawang has become my second home. And...well yeah ive been staying up late to choreograph the dance and sew and stuff. Sheesh! This is a lot of stress!. Nevertheless, im enjoying every bit of what im doing. Andd....im getting myself back. As in i lost myself in the whole chaos say...2 years ago? I THINK. Yeah..well, hell yeah baby! Im getting myself back. Just like how the tides fall, ill rise again...time and again. :D

2011-02-02T22:25:00.002+08:00

Im such a TV FREAK! I just fell in love with WARNER TV cause they've got ALLLL the shows i love there...

By the way, i am soooo loving the fairy tale Peter Pan.

I do believe in fairies, I do, I do.

2011-01-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

Im soooooooooo TIREDDDDD!

2011-01-25T01:23:00.002+08:00

Do YOU like talking to your ex? The one you used to share your love with and care for. The one who gave you all the love and support you need. Do YOU like talking to your ex? I....dont. Cause i miss him dearly. And knowing that i cant have him anymore sucks. Its suckier when hes with a girl you dont like. And you can be happy for him cause you dont like her. He tells you his life is going good and that it rarely happens. And instead of feeling happy for him or glad that hes better off now. You feel like crap. You feel like crap because your life is no where near going good. You start to compare and realise its just not the same without him. He adds that little bit of glitter to your life and its enough to make your day..You want that glitter back but you know..you know that glitter belongs to someone else now. Someone who doesnt deserve it at all. Sigh..you do like talking to your ex? I do..but i cant..cause when i do, i no longer feel happy. I feel sad. Sad that what we had once is long gone..:(

2011-01-16T20:49:00.001+08:00

Sometimes lifes just not fair. You need to have the looks to fit in.

2011-01-11T22:13:00.002+08:00

Im down with stomach flu. Yes im recovering but i feel very very weak and bloated.

Heres the real truth. Im stressed...im superbly stressed over every single thing. Its so demoralising to hang out with my friends. I worked hard i really did. But i failed. Im just plain STUPID! Sigh.

Clarence's nephew Benjamin made my day. I went to his place to play with his dog n saw his nephew. And...haha hes sooo cute! We were both shy of each other. Sat at the corners of the couch. And communicated like that. Hahaha and then later he kept asking for me when i left. Haha..awwww! Kids really just have a way of making your day..

2011-01-05T01:51:00.002+08:00

For the first time ever, im saying this and really really really meaning it from the bottom of my heart...i put on a happy face on the outside, but deep inside im truly crying my heart out cause it hurts that much.

I worry all the time. About you. Dating other girls. Getting to know girlsss. Crushing on someone else. Getting hurt..emotionally and physically. Hating the NS life. Not being happy or satisfied with anything. People pissing you off. You feeling upset. You not seeing the doctor when you are sick. Speeding. Overdosage of barons and still not getting drunk. Yes i worry about you all the time. I wish you were here right now with me. Cause i need you badly. And also so that i can take care of you and know that you are alright. I wish i had the power...the power to turn my thoughts into reality.

2011-01-05T01:09:00.002+08:00

I tried running away. And i did for a while. I guess the phrase you can run but you cant hide really does apply in reality. I ran and ran as far as i could, played with fire knowing the risk, and you managed to find me in the end. Cause i couldnt find a good hiding place. God bless me.

Maybe im with the wrong group of friends..I sacrificed my Saturdays to work towards my 3 goals and it backfired!

Its so unfair. How some people have the body, looks, the brain and a generally good life. What do i have? NOTHING! Im not preety or anything, i definitely dont have the brains and my life generally sucks. This is sooo unfair! Screw my life and stab a knife through me cause i think id be the happiest person to die.

2011-01-02T23:16:00.002+08:00

I was watching the just the way you are video by bruno mars. Omg so sweet! And then i looked back and wondered why i was so stupid before. You never told me any of those. No you dont HAVE to tell me that to be a good boyfriend. It just made me wonder. Did you even love me proper? Did you ever appreciate anything about me? I guess ill never know the answers to these questions. And even if i do meet you again, id never have the guts to ask you either. Anyhoos heres the song.

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

2011-01-02T19:31:00.003+08:00

Its 2011 already! How fast time flies by. Turning 20 this year and im not ready. I still feel like a kid. I dont feel adultish at all. So maybe this is a wake up call. Time to get more serious and matured. Hmm okay ill have to work towards it. So 2010 has ended and 2011 is here. I guess ive to let go of 2010s past and move on. Ive to let go of him, let go of my lazy cells, let go of the rotten attitude in me(or whats left of it) andd lead a better life.

How i wish i had the power to write out my life. As in make things happen. Id wish i was dating a vampire(LOLS) and id wish for a happy ending. And whenever i want any drama, id write it in and the minute i think its enough, i can just write a happy ending to end the drama.

My resolution for 2011 : to be a better person.

2010-12-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

I had a dream that i was a vampire and omg i loveddd it! No i did not suck anyones blood unfortunately but i liked the fact that i was one. Hmmm..

Had an awesome time with Joanna, Dephanie and You Wei at East Coast today. It was a class BBQ luh. And thanks Gael for the gift. Christmas this year wasnt good at all for me.

RIP Hammy. I love you very very much. I hope i did the right thing and that your soul is in heaven now resting with the angels. Ill never forget you. :)

Which is more romantic? A red room or a deep purple one?

2010-12-24T19:04:00.002+08:00

Will i ever see your face again? It's hard to accept that all the happy memories collated over the years have been crushed just like that in just a little amount of time. I still love you with all of my heart no matter what.

2010-12-24T11:49:00.002+08:00

A lot of guys keeps asking for my number. A lot of them wants to go out with me. But you know what? I dont care. Really i dont. Im flattered yes but half the time, i feel pissed and annoyed. Cause sometimes i just want them to stop and leave me alone. No its not that im not interested in a relationship. Its just that i miss him sooo much and nothings gonna change that for a long long time. This is the 7th month and im no where near getting over you. Sigh.

2010-12-24T11:41:00.000+08:00

12 hours and 18 minutes more! :))

2010-12-24T11:28:00.000+08:00

2010-12-22T03:25:00.003+08:00

So Brenda and i were chatting and this was how the conversation went :
Brenda says:
then we eat budgety
hahaha overspend for xmas alr
Christine says:
hahaha yeahh me too
i only have 10 in my bank now
Brenda says:
wah.
that bad uh?!
Christine says:
haha yeahh...
i spent 44 on my hamsters
soo..yeah
haha
but the hamsters part is worth it luh
their fur feels nicer
Brenda says:
HAHAHHA
seriously?
Christine says:
haha yeahhh
Brenda says:
hahaha or is it like psychologically
get psycho-ed by the shop guy hahaha
Christine says:
hahaha noo
it stopped dropping and it just feels nicer
ahahaha
Brenda says:
more fluffier?
Christine says:
haha not fluffier..just idk..like smooter?
like u know when we use conditioner for our hair?
Brenda says:
ahahaha lol!
okayyyy
hahah
44 bucks
so expensive
better work man
if not go refund it
Christine says:
haha
Christine says:
actually no...its like 11 bucks cause ive gt 4 hamsters
haha
Brenda says:
anw im gonna go sleep soon, i'll see you tmr at 330 kk
hahaha but still......
Christine says :
okay
Brenda says :
hamster conditioner 11 bucks
human conditioner is like..
less than that
and hamster so small
Christine says :
hahaha true
Christine says :
but its more effective than human conditioner
il try using it one day
Brenda says :
if you bathe your hammie with our hair conditioner, i think 4 hamsters whole lifetime also cannot use finish
Christine says:
then ill grow a furry head
Brenda says :
hahaha omg
nooooooooo
Christine says:
hahahaha whyyy
Brenda says:
and furry everywhere!
Christine says:
nice what...new fashion
hahaha
Brenda says:
real fur coat
Christine says:
haha vhoohoo
Brenda says:
fur still okay. later grow more hair like those cartoon harry monster kind how
like those, only can see the eyes
and everything else is like..
a mop
or a bush
hahahaha
Christine says:
hahahahahaha
ill still be ur best friend right?
Brenda says:
howhowhow
Christine says:
no matter how furry i am?
Brenda says:
yeah
Christine says:
hahaha
Brenda says:
i'll shave you
:B
Christine says:
hahaha whatttt?!?!
hahahaha
Brenda says:
so fun!
i've always wanted to shave someone
Christine says:
or we can like dye my hair
Brenda says:
HEHE
Christine says:
haha why?!?!
Brenda says:
omg like halloween everyday!
hahaha
and you can keep warm like that
Christine says:
hahahaha
Brenda says:
then how to shower!
Christine says:
haha just shower luh
i bottle of shampoo a day

Brenda says:
or go swimming!
or sun tan!
Brenda says:
omggggggg.....
Christine says:
hahahhahaha!!!!
Brenda says:
hahahahahaha
i can imagine
so funny hahahahaha!
Christine says:
me being furry???
hahaha
Brenda says:
then you can hide your hamsters in your hair
Christine says:
ill call my furryself....furtine
hahahaha why would i hide my hamsters in my hair?!!?!?!
later they mate inside my hair!
Brenda says:
then after that when you wanna play w them just dig them out again
HAHAHAH
LOL!
furtine!!!
good what!
then got babies!
Christine says:
hahahaha in my hair?!?!?!!?
babies in my hair?:
Brenda says:
quite cool
you're like the walking nanny
or nursery
hahaha
Christine says:
omggg then like everywhere i walk....ill drop hamsters
and leave a trail
hahahahaha
Brenda says:
HHAHAHAHAHA
if you go clubbing then how
Brenda says:
hahahah hamsters everywhereeeeee!!!

ILY BABE! <3

2010-12-22T03:18:00.003+08:00

Okay so i promised a picture of my tree this year right? Here it is :)

2010-12-21T23:18:00.003+08:00

Omg i think these people are quite cute. And i like this drama. I wanna be in it too! ;) Tamil is starting to become fun. I regret not putting in effort to learn it in school. But i am picking it up now and im loving it. Seriously. Its like i finally LOVE being an indian. And i want an indian boyfriend too.

2010-12-21T01:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday i spent five whole hours cleaning my room. It looks so much more cleaner and brighter now. :D

I THOUGHT i was done with my Christmas shopping. Butttt guess what? Im not! Arghh. Soooo many last minute gifts to get. Tsk tsk. Haha nevermind. Its still fun. :)

I have a feeling everyones skipping Christmas this year. Its just that the streets in town and like shopping malls and all arent very much decorated this year. Dont you think? Theres just no Christmas mood at all. I HAD it cause i thought or maybe just expected more. I miss the Christmas warmth i used to feel when i was a kid. Parties and guests and food and presents and FUN!

2010-12-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

'Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything u stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when u become the main source of her pain?' eminem.

2010-12-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

I envy caucasians. They can pull off any hair colour because of their skin colour. Like look at this :
You think an indian can pull this off?
Okay fine..its nice on her. So maybe i can pull this off. Who am i kidding? I cant pull this off! And caucasians with black hair looks good. But us asian women, its a norm. What about blonde? I like the ice blonde kinda colour..orrr idk the tanned kinda blone.
Anyways, i LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVEEEEE Tyra Banks. Not only is she drop dead GORGEOURS, but i loveeee her personality as well. I wish i was her.

Old 'Flames'

2010-12-15T01:57:00.003+08:00

Its funny how sometimes people you choose to close a door at in your life comes searching for you in the end. Within the past few days, four people(M, T, C, A) i chose to never again have anything with came to me. Wanting my friendship. Like so weird can? Cause we stopped talking not only cause of feuds but also cause i just didnt like them. And they were sort of telling me to forget the past cause we are already 19!
See, the thing is, i know where u guys are heading at. However, i cant help but to think so what? You did what you did. Till i forgive you, i wont be talking to you. IF i forgive you that is. You dont just enjoy ruining a persons life and then walk away and THEN come back saying forget it we are grown up. Darling you had an attitude there by the way. And i hated every bit of it.
Screwed up the Electronics paper just now. God help me. Cost accounting tomrrow. 4 down, 2 more to go. Nights!

2010-12-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

I wish i was a mind reader
I wish you had a blog
I wish we were more open then
Cause i'd definitely want to read your thoughts.

My heart still misses a beat everytime your name pops up.

2010-12-13T23:06:00.003+08:00

Bruno Mars - Grenade
Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

Baby love. Yes i will catch a grenade for ya cause thats exactly how much you mean to me. Ill love you till the very end. For now, just becareful with what you are handling. Ill do anything to make it alright again. Cant seem to get you out of my head.

Bombs and explosives reminds me of nothing but you.

2010-12-13T22:56:00.003+08:00

I realised i never did that post thats meant to go all jingles. So heres a belated one.
Its that time of the year again. Where snow is supposed to have already made its appearance and cinnamon is to fill the air. Yes, CHRISTMAS is just around the corner! The tree, bells, caroling, snow, cookies, presents, love, joy, fun and laughter with your loved ones.
Nice uh?!!??! No thats not my tree. WAHAHA! Ill upload a picture of my tree and decorations(maybe) soon luh.

Oh and by the way, Happy birthday NICOLE, JAMES, ROSHAN AND KISHAN! I love you all very very very much! :) <3

2010-12-13T22:36:00.002+08:00

So my maths paper turned out fine. Upset about that careless mistake though. Up next, Electronics aka the blood sucker.
Speaking of blood suckers, i sooo cannot wait for the exams to be over. Ive already planned it out. How i want to spend the next few days unwinding. I wanna get my Christmas shopping over and done with. Im done with the presents. Just need to get started on clothes.
And then theres a whole lot of Christmas movies i wanna sit down and watch. Black Christmas, The Grinch, The Christmas Carol. And then theres the normal ones. Love actually, Marley and me. AND THEN, im gonna download the tv series im IN LOVE WITH and watch Marathons.
Back to the blood sucker part, VAMPIRE DIARIES ANDDDDD TRUE BLOOD! Foooyoh! And then theres gossip girl and so on. Thanks Neeraj! Absolutely the BEST!

I know its a little dark and NO im not influenced by Twilight...but i LOVE vampires. If i can, id marry a Vampire. Damon Salvator from the Vampire Diaries is HAWTTT! No?
Yes..hard to believe aye? Ladies...HES MINE! MINE! MINE! MINE! This is where i turn all Gollum-ish from the lord of the rings.

2010-12-13T11:47:00.001+08:00

Ive the Maths Common Test later at 4pm. Guess what? IM NOT PREPARED! I mean i am but like im confused as to which formula i should be using for which question. They are all sooooooo similiar! Sigh..

2010-12-02T23:32:00.002+08:00

Having the worst day of the week. I failed my paper and got rejected by someone i truly love. Having been dating around..but its like that one person made your day everyday..and no one else has come close to that yet. No one seems to be good enough..yet. When he didnt reply, i felt hurt. I wanted to hold my heart tightly with both hands to console it. I wanted to remove my heart so i dont feel the hurt...

2010-11-30T00:21:00.001+08:00

I miss those days. Where i came home after school and had nothing to do. Now, my weeks always packed with having to meet people or work on assignments and stuff. Sigh. Ive no time for myself anymore..

2010-11-29T14:54:00.005+08:00

" life was an on-going challenge with new problems to resolve and manage."
~Minister mentor Mr Lee Kuan Yew Eulogy Mrs Lee Kuan Yew~

2010-11-29T14:54:00.004+08:00

" life was an on-going challenge with new problems to resolve and manage."
~Minister mentor Mr Lee Kuan Yew Eulogy Mrs Lee Kuan Yew~

2010-11-29T14:54:00.002+08:00

" life was an on-going challenge with new problems to resolve and manage."

Till death do us part. Scary aint it? Death. You dont know where you'll head to next. If there is an after life. If you'll ever meet the people youve grown fond of again. If..its gonna be for the better or worse...

To everyone i know whos passed on, RIP

2010-11-29T14:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEPHANIE.
I LOVE YOU BABE! :D

2010-11-28T00:42:00.002+08:00

Okay check this out. I think its preety cool!

Incantation Type of spell / charm Resulting Effect
Accio Charm Summons an object
Alohomora Charm Opens locked objects
Aparecium Spell Reveals invisible ink
Avada Kadavra Curse Murders opponent Unforgivable
Avifors Charm Turns small objects into birds.
Avis Spell Launches birds from your wand
Crucio Curse Tortures opponent Unforgivable
Confundus Charm Used to confuse opponent
Conjunctivitis Curse Damages opponents eyesight
Deletrius Spell Counters "Prior Incatato"
Densaugeo Spell Enlarges Teeth
Diffindo Spell Splits seams
Dissendium Spell Opens "One eyed witch" hump
Engorgio Charm Enlarges and item
Ennervate Spell Counters Stupefy
Expecto Patronum Charm Creates a Patronus
Expelliarmus Charm Disarms your opponent
Ferula Spell Creates bandages
Fidelius Charm Hides a secret within someone
Finite IncantatumSpell Stops any current spells
Flipendo Jinx Knocks an object backwards
Furnunculus Curse Produces boils on opponent
Homorphus Charm Lockhart's Werewolf "cure"
Immobulus Charm Renders target immobile.
Impedimenta Charm Slows an advancing object
Imperio Curse Controls a person Unforgivable
Impervius Charm Makes an object repel water
Incendio Spell Starts a fire
Legilimens Spell Allows the caster to delve into the mind of the victim
Locomotor Mortis Curse Locks opponents legs
Lumos Spell Creates light at wand tip
Mobiliarbus Charm Moves objects with wand
Mobilicorpus Spell Moves unconscious bodies
Morsmorde Spell Conjures the Dark Mark
Nox Spell Counter to Lumos
Obliviate Charm Erases memories
Orchideous Spell Conjures a bunch of flowers
Petrificus Totalus Spell Body - Bind
Point Me Charm Wand acts like a compass
Priori IncantatumSpell Result when brother wands duel
Prior Incantato Spell Reveals a wands last spell / cast
Protego Charm Cause spells to reflect back to the sender.
Quietus Spell Counter spell for Sonorus
Reducio Spell Returns items to original size. Counters Engorgio
Reducto Spell Blasts solid objects aside
Relashio Spell Releases user from binding
Repairo Spell Repairs Things
Rictusempra Charm Tickles opponent
Riddikulus Spell Use this spell and laugh to defeat a boggart
Scruge Charm Destroys ectoplasm (remains of ghosts)
Serpensortia Spell Produces Snake
Sonorus Spell Amplifies voice
Stupefy Spell Knocks out opponent
Tarantallegra Spell Forces opponent to dance
Waddiwasi Spell Unsticks an object
Wingardium LeviosaCharm Makes on object fly

Lost time is never found again

2010-11-28T00:05:00.002+08:00

Dont you ever think that 24 hours a day is too little? With the way society is and with the way our lifestyles is as such, is 24 hours a day really enough? I think its truly amazing how the clock works. Amazing yet at the same time scary. I mean its like counting the number of days left before we leave the earth. Isnt it? Its also amazing cause it creates a system. But why this technologically advanced society? Seriously. Why not the caveman way of living where everything was way simpler. Eat, sleep, love, live.

Anyways ive realised i miss doing GP!

2010-11-25T00:32:00.003+08:00

I was having a bad day on Tuesday. But my favourite ladies cheered me up. Thanks loves! <3

Oh man whyy? Whyy? Why do we have to make choices in life. They say the most important decisions in life are always the hardest. You know what? Its true! I broke up with Siva. Okay WE broke up. May 16 2010. Its like almost 5 months now and im not a single bit over him. Yes ive gone out on dates, yes ive flirted with other guys. But none of it is working. I miss Siva sooo much and want him back. No one is ever gonna be as good as he is. And im confidently saying this not cause ive not met others out there but because ive already been out with many guys on dates and none of them reached out to me. There are like say 4-5 SINCERE guys who are after me. All very very nice. Boy friend material and all. But..i dont like them. I love Siva. Sigh. Siva, Siva, Siva. I miss you baby. :( Wish i could just show you how much ive changed. I bet you'd be so proud of me.

Don't you ever think how some things are kinda weird? Like...i lost them and went through a lot, emotionally and mentally. Then Siva came into the picture and left. And now that hes gone, i think he made me become what i am today: a better person like idk like there was a reason for him to come into my life and that was to teach me to become a better person? And then now that im..managing in life, comes back and it feels nice...comfortable..cause ive missed you soooo much but sometimes it feels weird cause...i dont know it WAS a year and a half. No its not a bad thing. Its a good thing. A good feeling. I guess its just the time luh. Its weird how time really heals stuff.

Like sometimes when i think of the phrase lifes a bitch or time heals and all, i find myself in a state of shock cause you know people always say these stuff and we hear it and feel nothing? Its different when you go through it cause then u know that all these cliche lines and all are really true.

2010-11-11T11:29:00.001+08:00

I miss this. I miss that. I miss everything. Was it really my fault to begin with? Would i have been happier living with the lie instead? As life gets tougher and tougher to live with, i come to realise theres really no way out.

2010-11-09T01:28:00.001+08:00

I cry myself to sleep every night...:'(

2010-11-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

Sigh..back to emo mode. I thought the nightmare was over. Apparently not. Facing problems that never ended and problems that are going to begin soon. God help me please...

2010-10-27T02:43:00.002+08:00

If the world was going to end tomorrow, what would I do?

1. I'd tell everyone i love that i love them.

2. I'd then grab a knife and go around stabbing people i hate and then i'd stab myself to death before the world comes to an end.

If I had one wish, what would it be?

-> It would be to turn back time and prevent shit from happening.

How do i feel right now?

-> LOUSY! :(

2010-09-27T00:50:00.002+08:00

100 things to do when you are bored.

1. Build fairy houses in the backyard.
2. Start a nature scrapbook.
3. Canstruction.
4. Play chalk games. or draw pictures with chalk on the sidewalk.
5. Make mud pies and have a tea party.
6. Have a real tea party with some friends and tell stories.
7. Play with rice.
8. Make a yummy salad and eat it.
9. Paint the Sistine Chapel ceiling.
10. Work a jigsaw puzzle.
11. Copy a famous painting.
12. Get your bicycle out, clean it up, and get it ready for summer.
13. Practice folding a shirt.
14. Make a poster collage.
15. Make some playdough.
16. Preschool Paper Crafts
17. Mix 2 cups water with a little food coloring, add 6 cups of cornflour/cornstarch to make goop.

18. Cut out and play paper dolls.
19. Watch a familiar DVD dubbed in a foreign language.
20. Make a house of cookies.
21. Volunteer to help a neighbor for free—just because.
22. String beads on dental floss to make a necklace.
23. Listen to Peter and the Wolf and act it out.
24. Make a milkshake or a smoothie.
25. Start this “childhood in a jar” project.
26. Make a lapbook.
27. Learn to sew.
28. Take one of Carmon’s writin’ suggestions.
29. Watch a Shakespeare play on video. HT: Buried Treasure.

30. Have a backyard carnival.
31. Make up a math scavenger hunt game or a treasure hunt for a younger brother or sister or for a friend.
32. Learn the alphabet in sign language.
33. Make sand pictures.
34. Make birthday cards for all your friends and relatives for the year. Date them and file them in date order to be ready to send.

35. Make a kite and fly it.
36. Plant a flower bed.
37. Write an old-fashioned, hand-written letter to a friend.
38. Go for a bike ride.
39. Try origami (Japanese paper-folding) or make a paper airplane and fly it.
40. Make a collage.
41. Play store—or library–or school—or???

42. Spring/summer clean.
43. Play a card game.
44. Play in the rain.
45. Play a map game.
46. Put on a play.
47. Open a day spa.
48. Build with LEGOS.
49. Learn a few magic tricks and produce your own magic show.
50. Give yourself –or a friend –a pedicure.
51. Take a long, hot bath.
52. Play hopscotch.
53. Swing. (“Oh, I do think it the pleasantest thing ever a child can do.”)
54. Go camping–or stay home and camp out in your own dining room.
55. Create a new word. My new word for this month is semicolonic. I’m now trying to popularize it.

56. Start a lemonade stand.
57. Make and walk on tin-can stilts. We read about these in Ramona and Her Father.
58. Make a summer snack.
59. Blow bubbles.
60. Play with water guns.
61. Play scoop ball.
62. Laugh 400 times today. Keep count.
63. Visit a playground. But don’t go to the park on an August afternoon in Houston. There’s a story there that I’ll tell someday when I get over the trauma of it. It may be a while yet because it all happened about fifteen years ago. We’re talking Houston heat, sand, buried shoes, lots of tears and one exhausted, hot mother. I should have laughed. Not a happy memory.
64. Practice your Morse code— or your tap dancing.
65. Create your own Roxaboxen.
66. Arrange some flowers for a centerpiece.
67. Watch a movie based on your favorite children’s book.
68. Go to the library.
69. Memorize something meaningful: a psalm, a poem, a passage from the Bible, the Gettysburg Address.

70. Pop some popcorn.
71. Climb a tree.
72. Bathe the ponies. Or your dolls. Or the dog. Not the cat.
73. Practice tying knots.
74. Swim.
75. Wash the car, or wash someone else’s car.
76. Collect some canned goods for the food bank.
77. Dance to whatever music you have available.
78. Iron some clothes while listening to a recorded book.
79. Paint a picture: use watercolors, tempera, oil paints, acrylics, what ever you have on hand.
80. Organize your own marching band.
81. Draw a map of your block or of your town, or trace a map of your country and fill in the states or cities or other features.
82. Get a haircut. If you’re really adventurous, give yourself a haircut. (Has anyone ever done this—as an adult? I’m much too klutzy to cut my own hair.)
83. Find a joke and tell it someone else.
84. Practice playing a musical instrument. If you don’t play an instrument, try learning to play one, maybe the recorder or the harmonica.
85. Shoot baskets or play tennis.
86. Interact with nature.

87. Make your own fireworks for the Fourth of July. Engineer Husband really used to do this when he was a young adolescent, and I can’t believe his parents let him. He tried to make nitroglycerine once, but he got scared and made his father take it outside and dispose of it! Maybe you should just read about how fireworks are made and then imagine making your own.
88. Read another list of 101 things to do in the summer. You could stay busy reading lists of things to do and never really do anything!
89. Use fabric paints to decorate a shirt.
90. Walk around your block and pick up all the litter you can find.
91. Visit a nursing home. Bring handmade cards or pictures you drew or something to give away.
92. Read the book of Ruth in the Bible. Or another book of the Bible.
93. Rearrange the furniture in your bedroom.
94. Clean out your closet.
95. Make up a scavenger hunt.
96. Make a macaroni necklace. Or string beads.
97. Water the yard or the houseplants or the flowers you planted.
98. Write each of these activities on a separate piece of paper and fold the papers and put them in a jar. Choose two or three papers out of the jar whenever you need a suggestion for something to do.

99. Run around the block 3 times.
100. Make your own list of things to do when you’re bored.

2010-09-24T02:34:00.003+08:00

Im honoured to have known someone like you in my life. Im making you my personal angel Nims. I just hope you are happy, safe and guided where ever you are. You will forever stay in my heart. Still cant believe that you arent around anymore... :(

2010-09-24T01:44:00.005+08:00

Nimalan...i miss you so very much. My first bike ride was with you. You are a really awesome guy. Really really awesome guy. Just wish time permitted us to spend more time together. Ill never ever forget you da. Never. Remember you kept telling me to listen to the song tonight? Remember that? Im listening to it now. And its really nice. Suits everything that im going through now. Nimi..i cant accept the fact that you are gone. Its too hard to believe. You are too awesome to be away from us. Come back da. Please? I still have your cigarette burns on my hand. I remember how we first met. I remember all the jokes you cracked. You were a jovial person. Always joking around and putting smiles on our faces. And though i just got to know you this year, you already made an impact on my life. Not having you around is like having the world screwed up. I love you Nimi. Really. Now theres a reason for me to look forward for my time to come. Ill be able to see you again. :) One day, we'll reunite again. And if there is such a thing as afterlife, then i definitely want to be your friend again. Rest in peace Nimalan. Will love you always. ONE LIFE! ONE CHANCE! Vroom Vroom all the way!

Fm static - tonight

I remember the times we spent together

All those drives, we had a million questions

All about our lives
And when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now
Would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad, sometimes
Not having you here

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I sing
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

2010-08-25T22:58:00.002+08:00

474 Things To Do When You're Bored

- Wax the ceiling
- Rearrange political campaign signs
- Sharpen your teeth
- Play Houdini with one of your siblings
- Braid your dog's hair
- Clean and polish your belly button
- Water your dog...see if he grows
- Wash a tree
- Knight yourself
- Name your child Edsel
- Scare Stephen King
- Give your cat a mohawk
- Purr
- Mow your carpet
- Play Pat Boone records backwards
- Vacuum your lawn
- Sleep on a bed of nails
- DON'T toss and turn
- Boil ice cream
- Run around in squares
- Think of quadruple entendres
- Speak in acronyms
- Have your pillow X-rayed
- Drink straight shots...of water
- Calmly have a nervous breakdown
- Give your goldfish a perm
- Fly a brick
- Play tag...on West 35th Street
- Exorcise a ghost
- Exercise a ghost
- Be blue
- Be red
- But don't be orange
- Plant a shoe
- Sweat
- Give a Rorschach test to your gerbil
- Turn
- Write a letter to Plato
- Mail it
- Take your sofa for a walk
- Start
- Stop
- Dial 911 and breathe heavily
- Go to a funeral...tell jokes
- Play the piano...with mittens on
- Scheme
- Sit
- Stay
- Water your family room
- Cause a power failure
- Roll over
- Play dead
- Find a witch
- Burn her
- Donate your brother's body to science
- Ask why
- Wriggle
- Regress
- Sleepwalk without sleeping
- Try to join Hell's Angels by mail
- Wonder
- Be a square root
- Ask stupid questions
- Weld your car doors shut
- Spew
- Vacation at Three-Mile Island
- Surf Ohio
- Teach your pet rock to play dead
- Go bowling for small game
- Be a monk...for a day
- Wear a sweatband to your wedding
- Staple
- Run away
- Intimidate a piece of chalk
- Abuse the plumbing
- Bend a florescent light
- Bend a brick
- Annoy total strangers
- Let the best man win
- Believe in Santa Claus
- Throw marshmallows against the wall
- Hold an ice cube as long as possible
- Adopt strange mannerisms
- Blow up a balloon until it pops
- Sing soft and sweet and clear
- Sing loud and sour and gravely
- Open everything
- Balance a pencil on your nose
- Pour milk in your shoes
- Write graffiti under the rug
- Embarrass yourself
- Grind your teeth
- Chew ice
- Count your belly button
- Sit in a row
- Stack crumbs
- Gesture
- Save your toenail clippings
- Make a pass at your blender
- Punt
- Make up words that start with X
- Make oatmeal in the bathtub
- Search for the Lost Chord
- Chew on a sofa cushion
- Sing a duet
- Balance a pillow on your head
- Hold your breath
- Faint
- Stretch
- Flash your mailman
- Teach your TA English
- Learn to speak Farsi
- Swear in Russian
- Use an eraser until it goes away
- Disassemble your car
- Put it together inside out
- Record your walls
- Interview your feet
- Make a list of your favorite fungi
- Sell formaldehyde
- Repeat
- Ad lib
- Fade
- File your teeth

- Whine
- Rake your carpet
- Re-elect Richard Nixon
- Critique "Three's Company"
- Listen to a painting
- Play with matches
- Buff your cat
- Race ferrets
- Paint your house...Day-Glow Orange
- Have a formal dinner at White Castle
- Read Homer in the original Greek
- Learn Greek
- Change your mind
- Change it back
- Watch the sun...see if it moves
- Build a pyramid
- Stand on your head
- Stand on someone else's head
- Spit shine your Nikes
- See how long you can stay awake
- See how long you can sleep
- Paint your teeth
- Wear a salad
- Speak with a forked tongue
- Paint stripes on a lake
- Ski Kansas
- Sleep in freefall
- Kill a Joule
- Test thin ice...with a pogo stick
- Apply for a unicorn hunting license
- Do a good job
- Crawl
- Invite the Mansons over for dinner
- Paint your windows
- Watch a watch until it stops
- Flash your goldfish
- Paint
- Flirt with an evergreen
- Smile
- Rotate your garden...daily
- Paint a smile
- Shoot a fire hydrant
- Apologize to it
- Pretend you're blind
- Annoy yourself
- Get mad at yourself
- Stop speaking to yourself
- Be a side effect
- Ride a bicycle...up Mt. McKinley
- Duck
- Redecorate...your garage
- Develop a complex
- Join the Army...be someone simple
- Try harder
- Hit the deck
- Put leg-warmers on your furniture
- Cut the deck
- Crumple
- Translate Shakespeare into English
- Skydive to church
- Cheer up a potato
- Do aerobic exercises...in your head
- Play cards with your swimming pool
- Pinstripe your driveway
- Play Kick the Fire Hydrant
- Harness chipmunk power
- Build a house with ice cubes
- Call London for a cab
- Mug a stop sign
- Change your name...daily
- Go for a walk in your attic
- Challenge your neighbor to a duel
- Build a house out of toothpicks
- Howl
- Wear a lampshade on your head
- Memorize the dictionary
- Stomp grapes in the bathtub
- Find a bug and chase it
- Make yourself a pair of wings
- Be immobile
- Dance 'til you drop
- Check under chairs for chewing gum
- Squish a loaf of bread
- Moo
- Bounce a potato
- Outmaneuver your shadow
- Climb the walls
- Appreciate everything
- Challenge yourself to a duel
- Make napalm
- Tattoo your dresser
- Watch a bowling ball
- Buy some diapers
- Eat everything
- Begin
- Pour milk in the sink
- Make cottage cheese
- Tie-dye your sheets
- Carpet your ceiling
- Hold your earlobes
- Fold your earlobes
- Flap
- Squawk
- Read tea leaves
- Analyze the Koran
- Be Buddha
- Award yourself a Nobel Peace Prize
- Plug in the cat
- Turn on everything
- Drop pebbles down the chimney
- Turn off your neighbor
- Kill a plant
- Buy a 1931 Almanac
- Memorize the weather section
- Think lewd thoughts about yourself
- Blow bubbles
- Send chills down your spine
- Peel grapes
- Make paper from the skins
- Bloat
- Catch them with your radiator
- Get run over by a train of thought
- Make up famous sayings
- Bite your pinkie

- Get your dog braces
- Shave a shrub
- Have a proton fight
- Watch a car rust
- Quiver
- Rotate your carpet
- Learn to type...with your toes
- Set up your Christmas tree in April
- Be someone special
- Buy the Brooklyn Bridge
- Mail it to a friend
- Go back to square one
- Factor your social security number
- Take the fifth
- Memorize a series of random numbers
- Read the 1962 Des Moines white pages
- Join the Foreign Legion
- Learn Sanskrit
- Exist...existentially, of course
- Print counterfeit Confederate money
- Kick a cabbage
- Take a picture
- Put it back
- Sandpaper a mushroom
- Play solitaire...for cash
- Abuse your patio furniture
- Run for Pope
- Count to a million...fast
- Make a schematic drawing...of a rock
- Commit seppuku...with a paper knife
- Revert
- Think shallow thoughts
- Starch your shoes
- Polish your Calvin's
- Contemplate a cockroach
- Get a dog to chase your car
- Let him catch it
- Investigate the Czar
- Form a political party
- Climb a sidewalk
- Have a political party
- Get diagonal...with a good friend
- Ride a loaf of bread
- Sharpen a carrot
- Interrogate a gerbil
- Go bow hunting for Toyotas
- Kidnap Cabbage Patch Kids
- Jump back
- Play to lose
- Scalp a street light
- Have your car painted...plaid
- Read a tomato
- Sharpen your sleeping skills
- Watch a game show...take notes
- Put out a fire
- If you can't find a fire, make one
- Interview a cloud
- Play tiddlywinks...go for blood
- Play basketball...in a minefield
- Don't talk to things
- Draw Lewis structures on your ceiling
- Have your cat bronzed
- Have your gerbil gilded
- Write books about writing books
- Create random equations
- Mispell words
- Tell your feet a joke
- Throw a tomato into a fan
- Sing the ABC song backwards
- Pretend you're a dog
- Dial-a-prayer and argue with it
- Grease the doorknobs
- String up a room
- Stack furniture
- Relive fond memories
- Tie your shoelaces together
- Gargle
- Count your teeth with your tongue
- Decay
- Find your half-life
- Design a better toilet seat
- Shred a newspaper
- Have a headache
- Scratch
- Sniff
- Hatch an egg
- Play air guitar
- Act profound
- Spill
- Spell
- Stare
- Truncate
- Slouch
- Develop hearing problems
- Put your feet behind your head
- Tie bows in everything
- Hold your hand
- Watch the minute hand move
- Grow your fingernails
- Pretend you're a telephone
- Ring
- Radiate
- Skip
- Play hopscotch...with real scotch
- Clock the velocity of your REMs
- Put your shoes on the opposite feet
- Cross your toes
- Roll your tongue
- Crystallize
- Baby oil the floor
- Hide
- Attack innocent bunnies
- Declare war
- Destroy a tree
- Hide the scrabble bag
- Seduce your stick shift
- Wink
- Memorize the periodic table
- Mummify
- Pretend you're a roadie
- Buy a Ginsu knife
- Collect electrons
- Correct typos that aren't there
- Polish your neck...use Pledge

- Recopy the Bible substituting your name for God
- Loosen the lug nuts on your dad's new car
- Drop your cat off the roof to see if it lands on all four feet
- Count the bags under Walter Mondale's eyes
- Unscrew all the lightbulbs and rearrange the furniture
- Found the Jim Jones School of Bartending
- Listen for non-satanic messages (i.e. "Drink milk")
- Dress like Motley Crue...surprise your grandmother
- Dial-a-Prayer and tell them they're wrong
- Go into a bar and ask for a Molotov Cocktail
- Learn everything there is to know about the Holy Roman Empire
- Make a drive-in window at your local bank where there wasn't one before
- Walk on water...but don't get caught
- Confess to a crime...that didn't happen
- Be in the wrong place at the right time
- Plot the overthrow of your local School Board
- Request covert assistance from the CIA
- Discover the source of the Mississippi
- Search for buried treasure...in Nebraska
- Hot wax the bottom of your brother's dress shoes
- Preach the philosophy of Marx...Groucho, that is
- Drink as much prune juice as you can
- Write a book about your previous life
- Serve ping-pong balls...as hors d'oeuvres
- Jump up and down...on your alarm clock
- Make a quilt out of used cocktail napkins
- Sterilize your stereo...with Jack Daniels
- Carve you and your girlfriend's initials...in a marshmallow
- Drive the speed limit...in your garage
- Sing the national anthem...during your calculus final
- Wear a three-piece suit...in a sauna
- Pay off the national debt...with a bad check
- Go to a cemetary and verbally abuse dead people
- Give yourself a hernia...for Christmas
- Defend your neighborhood from roving Mongol hordes
- Recite romantic poetry...to your toaster
- See if you really can build a nuclear device in your own basement
- Go to McDonald's and pretend you can't speak English
- Write to your congressmen, senators, President, etc. to tell them what a good
- job they're doing...On April 1st
- Find the heat capacity of your chemistry professor
- Take apart all your major kitchen appliances...mix and match them
- Turn your TV picture tube upside down
- Phone in a death threat on President Kennedy
- Put lighted EXIT signs on all your closets
- Carry a tune...drop it, see if it breaks
- Be planar...but don't tell your parents
- Play hockey with your little cousin...as the puck
- Make a deal with the devil...but keep your fingers crossed
- Put instant concrete in your big brother's waterbed
- Give a lecture on the historical significance of cream cheese
- Debate politics with a fern
- See how small you can scrunch your face

- Sell firewood door to door...in Atlantis
- Found the TLO (Toledo Liberation Organization)
- Play nuclear chicken with a small third world nation
- Raise professional certified racing turnips
- Give your grandmother a raise and another day of paid vacation
- Lead an aerobics class...for patients of the I.C.U.
- Go to a drive-in movie in a tank
- Go to a non-drive-in movie in a tank and drive in anyway
- Send President Reagan an alarm clock...wind it up first
- Found a cockroach stable and stud ranch
- Send your goldfish to obedience school
- Free the oppressed toasters of America
- Weave a tablecloth out of copper tubing
- Give your cat a suntan...in the microwave
- Park your car...with a friend
- Park your car...with a group of friends
- Frame your first statement of bankruptcy
- Place it on the wall of your office
- Solve the population problem (x^2 + y^2 = population...solve for x)
- Contribute to the population problem
- Wear a T-shirt that says "I'll walk on you to see The Who" and a peace sign
- Practice the Aztec method of heart removal on your professor
- Find out who made the super glue commercials and give them your Ginsu knife
- Get Ronco and K-tel to merge...they sell the same stuff anyway
- Sneak into a nuclear physics lab and stay the night
- Play with anything that looks interesting
- Drop piston engines on two people and see who squishes first
- See if your goldfish can live in Coors rather than water
- Try to ignite water...the Mississippi might work
- Draw Venn diagrams...screw them up
- State fallacies as fact (like, "peanuts grow on bushes")
- Visit the Architecture building...loudly criticize its design
- Make a schematic drawing...of a rock
- Wallpaper your laundry room...with pages from books you don't like
- See if diamonds really do cut glass...on everything in your neighbor's house
- Tenderize your tongue...chew on it for a while
- See how long you can stare at a fluorescent light...try green
- Bronze your sister's turtle
- See how long it takes for her to notice
- See what she does when she notices
- Bronze your sister- If you lose, stop watering it and try again.
- Increase your territorial holdings by force
- Find out how many ways there really are to skin a cat
- Boldly go where no man has gone before
- Be a threat to the American way of life
- Do research into the cause of World War III
- Be a threat to the Northwestern Tibetan way of life
- Re-establish the Roman Empire...in Pittsburgh

2010-08-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes

Saying AYO!

Gotta let go!

I wanna celebrate and live my life

Saying AYO!

Baby, let's go!

Im not happy! Cause im allowing people to say im quiet. BOO! Im not. Or rather...i wasnt then. Sigh a lot of work to be done on myself. Its okay. I love challenges. And i shall accept this one with my head held up high with pride running through my soul. Ill prove everyone wrong! :D

Anyways, i have awesome friends. Cant wait to catch up with so many of you! :)

Andddd oh man...no alcohol for a month! Grrr...

Like Mohnish said...its like fish without water.

Oh i need to learn how to use twitter.

IF i can remember my password to log in? Lols.

2010-08-09T21:50:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was epic! I spent $5.20 to cab down to woodlands from yishun to watch fireworks. Haha it was a countdown to National Day. I didnt even know they had such things? But it was naicee. Lepak-ed at Vista Point after that with the clan.

2010-08-04T18:47:00.003+08:00

Heys all! I had two exam papers to sit for today : Singapore and its world in perspective and Good Manufacturing Practices. I think i can pass. :D Thats a good thing cause i stayed up all night and worked my ass of studying for them. Next paper : Microcontroller Applications on Friday. :)

2010-08-04T18:31:00.007+08:00

Nice ah? :)

2010-08-01T20:07:00.001+08:00

My inspiration :)

2010-08-01T19:54:00.004+08:00

Im supposed to be studying but im not?

Grrr!

Anyways, my absolute absolute absolute LOVE :

2010-07-30T21:09:00.002+08:00

Shontelle - Impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible!
Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did..

2010-07-30T20:56:00.002+08:00

Why is it that looks plays a really big part in everything? Do i have to put on tons of make up just to be in? :C

By the way, i miss Brenda very very much! :D

2010-07-30T00:09:00.002+08:00

I wish...that in Singapore, we could go horse back riding and have grape farms where you can make wines and surfing and ugh! I wanna get out of Singapore...

Anyways im sooo tired...i need a hug!

2010-07-29T23:55:00.001+08:00

I feel wasted. School was blehh today. Same old. So much to study and do. Sheesh! Anyways, Jo and i brought Deph to the garden we discovered in school. And as usual we all got excited over nothing? :P

2010-07-29T00:08:00.003+08:00

When was the last since i blogged? Grr anyways, Brenda once told me i tend to like vent my anger or post sad stuff on my blog. Was reading my previous posts and realised how true that statement was. So as of now, im gonna try to revamp my blog. *grins*

I need MOPIKO badly! Sooo many mosquito bites. Tsk!

Change of lifestyle. :)

Whats new in my life? Nothing much luh..apart from more work load form school and out of school and my sudden out burst of many neww friends, nothing much really. Oh for some reason, Jo, Deph, Sha, YL and i have been going mad in school the past few days. We get amused by things and people easily so we end up laughing like mad. I sometimes feel as though one of them is secretly carrying one of those laughing gases thingy? Haha.

July, the month of partying! Seriously. Its my birthday month so ive been clubbing alot. Coincidentally, its also the month of many many parties ive been to. The best so far was Nathan's BBQ last Sat? Really freaked out there with the amount of alcohol we all had. :)

Next party, Naren's 20th birthday bash at Chijmes this Sat!

YOU! I really really wish you'd stop lying to me. Everything is obvious and i aint stupid...sigh. Im very disappointed in you.

Tomorrow is the last day of school for this week. And then inception with Divs and Neeraj on Friday i hope. Till then ive got to start studying. 3 papers next week before the start of the YOG and study break.

2010-07-01T00:13:00.003+08:00

Haha so thick skin but...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :D

Im sad that im 19 though. My last year of being a teen. SIGH!

Okay ive got to get back to studying for tomorrows paper. =)

2010-06-28T15:15:00.003+08:00

Okay so this is the exam week.

Tuesday - maths

Wednesday - mca lab

Thursday - bme design

Have i studied? NO! So basically im dead. Rushing through maths now. Theres really alott to study luh. Anyways, a lot has been happening in my life the past few weeks. Things im still confused about. People i ought to be angry with but im not. Clubbing, parties and alcohol alcohol alcohol. I guess thats life right. Shit happens. Dont get me wrong. My life hasnt exactly been 100% miserable. There are wonderful things that happened too. Cant wait for this Thursday to come. No not because its my birthday. But because it marks the end of my exams. ONLY. Most probably wanna club this weekend but ive got to find time. Already have three clubbing dates and 1 thanni(alcohol) session pending.

I like this tamil song. Its really nice...its called anbe en anbe.

Argh okay i better get back to studying. Wish me luck =)

2010-06-23T17:32:00.002+08:00

19 June 2010 - i saw you again. Never thought i would but i did. Never thought we'd speak again but we did. And now....now because of this, i keep seeing you in my dreams. We keep talking in my dreams. You are still alive there. I miss you soo much. Soo soo much...:(

3 doors down "Here Without You"

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate

Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

And when the last one falls

When it's all said and done

It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby

And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl its only you and me

2010-06-19T17:05:00.001+08:00

And after a month or so...i saw your face again. =)

2010-06-10T03:03:00.002+08:00

3.03am. Im mugging for Biology exam tomorrow. And i feel sick. And im addicted to Thuli Thuli when i should be studying. And im messaging Nathan now.

So the pharynx has three subdivisions : nasopharynx, oropharynx and the laryngopharynx.

Haha okay im off!

*When i get older, i will be stronger....*

2010-06-06T22:07:00.002+08:00

Every now and then, i cry myself to sleep. It sucks. Feeling sad on the inside and having to put up a good front. But i find it a relief to let things out once in a while. Im such an idiot! So blinded by everything and self centered. Im so sorry. And im wishing and praying every single day that you'll come back. No ones gonna be good enough. Theres never a day that ive not thought about you. I miss you. :(

Miley Cyrus - When i look at you

Everybody needs inspiration,

Everybody needs a song

A beautiful melody

When the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee

That this life is easy...

Yea when my world is falling apart

When there's no light to break up the dark

That's when I, I...

I look at you

When the waves

Are flooding the shore and I can't

Find my way home anymore

That's when I, I...

I look at you

When I look At You I see forgiveness

I see the truth

You love me for who I am

Like the stars Hold the moon

Right there where they belong

And I Know I'm Not Alone.

Yea when my world is falling apart

When there's no light to break up the dark

That's when I, I...

I look at you

When the waves

Are flooding the shore and I can't

Find my way home anymore

That's when I, I...

I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me

Just like Kaleidoscope colors that

Cover Me, All I need every

Breath that I breathe don't you know

You're beautiful...

Yea Yea Yea

When the waves

Are flooding the shore and I can't

Find my way home anymore

That's when I, I...

I look at you

Yea Yea Oh OH OH

And you appear Just like a dream

To me.

2010-05-28T14:32:00.002+08:00

Its been the longest time since i blogged. Mainly cause i dont know what to blog. I mean i have things to blog about but i dont know what my thoughts are exactly. I dont know what to say about things. Life has been a major roller coaster the past few months.

Wanted to give up my life cause for what i've been through, I didnt think i could move on. Grow up thinking that happened to me before. I was a victim. But i guess i realised that eventually..some way or another, you do move on. Memories become a blur in time to come. They start to fade away and more happy thoughts fills your mind. Its not impossible.

Anyways, i miss my friends a lot. Its true. I am kinda lost without you guys. :(

School and life in general has been hectic much! Been so busy lately. I need a break. And everytime i ask myself why did i take on so many responsibilities, i remember the answer. Its cause i wanted other things to occupy my mind. I wanted to move on easy and fast. And it is working! =)

Oh and Iffa gave me comfort words. Ive been so caught up in my sorrows, i guess i forgot about everyone else? These were her words "I guess everyone is going through shit now". It made me realise that im not the only one going through a tough time. And it also made me realise that im not alone. That made me feel better abit. Thanks babe!

Exams are not very far away. And as usual, ive not started. Crap! Theres still ample time luh. Sort of. And im gonna do something different this time. Im gonna start studying early.

Oh and by the way. This is for the two of you. I dont think i did anything to you guys. I honestly think you guys are behaving rather childishly. But its your life. Im not much of an impact anymore. And is it me or are people these days being really fake?

2010-05-09T19:45:00.000+08:00

I miss you soooooo much! And im sorry for always being a pain. Sigh wish i could do better sometimes...

2010-05-05T16:35:00.001+08:00

I am NOT going down without a fight!

2010-05-04T23:55:00.001+08:00

I want a way out of this!

2010-04-27T17:48:00.003+08:00

Someone just asked me...so hows school? You know what? I didn't realise this myself. School isEXCELLENT! I'm so super loving my friends. Awesome people really! My lecturers this semester arent bad either. And for some reason, they all know me and my friends already? Haha.

Anyways, dinner-ed with Vinay at pasta mania last Tuesday.

Bumped into a lot of people in school and got their numbers. Finally my contact list is building up! Mugged at Macs with NC on Saturday night till 3am.

Sunday, i made the trip from Yishun to Pasir Ris to Changi possible! =)

Lunched with Paaven and watched Gurushetram -24 hours of anger with Anand yesterday.

This is the first Singapore Tamil movie based on a true story. Everything about it was awesomee from the acting to the story to everything. Simply Marvelous. Definitely looking forward to more Singapore tamil movies like this. To all indians out there, its a must watch! Two thumbs up! :)

Andddd....im loving my baby more than ever! Can't wait to see you again. :)

Gemini

2010-04-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

Today is a day to remember...

2 points!

2010-04-19T21:41:00.003+08:00

Today was the start of year 2 semester 1. Woke up late..as usual right???? But i wasnt late for school. Mananged to rush in the nick of time. Anyways, i was listening to 98.7fm while making my way to school and one of the deejays went like "The June holidays are coming soon!" And i went like whaaatt? I JUST STARTED SCHOOL! How ironic right? Saw so many familiar faces today. And i felt so happy to see my friends again. Awesome feeling man.

Hmm skipped the second part of school for something more important. But today was a total epic failure man. Seriously.

Everyone keeps asking....whens your test? Whens your test?

Scary sial! Wish me luck though.

I miss you. But at the same time im hating every single thing about you.

Second thoughts.

Noo! Meshach is going to NS too? Why? Why is everyone leaving? Arghhh!

2010-04-16T02:29:00.002+08:00

Went East Coast with Joanna, Gael, Adeline, Sha, Atiqah and Salam on Wednesday. Had loads of fun roller blading, cycling and kite flying. Thanks peeps for teaching me both! Now i cant wait for school to start. Well, sort of. Saw Mr You Know Who. OMG!

God is a girl. :X

2010-04-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

Paaven sent me a story to read. And something in the story caught my attention.

"Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have."

2010-04-14T00:42:00.002+08:00

Awesome job sound waves!
My favourite was still Yoga's part and Whatcha Say. =)
Wayy to go!

Anyways, meeting the babes in about 11 hours.
I need to get to bed.
I am sleepy anyways.
Goodnight people!

2010-04-13T16:01:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO GOVAN
AND 18th TO GAEL!
TWO VERY VERY AWESOME PEOPLE IN MY LIFE..
HAVE A BLAST!
=)

2010-04-13T01:12:00.001+08:00

Just got home. Played counter strike with Sara and Lawrence. OMG! Damn fun. Watched Date night, dinnered at mac and drank liquor afterwards. They walked me home. Thank you!

2010-04-12T04:24:00.001+08:00

Okay its 433am and im going to bed. Ironically, i just heard someones alarm go off. Haha! Toodles!

2010-04-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

What'cha Say lyrics

[Chorus]
Wha- wha- what did she say
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is

[Verse 1]
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself (myself)
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
So, no I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 2]
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go (love go)
And ooh, when I do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together

[Hook]
So let me in (let me in) give me another chance (another chance)
To really be your man
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

[Verse 3]
Girl, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Tell me, tell me whatcha said (said)
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right

[Hook]
Cause when the roof cave in and the truth came out
I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large
I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say!

[Chorus]
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)

Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say

2010-04-11T00:44:00.002+08:00

Hokay so im back. Frommmmm dinner with Galvin and Cynthia. Galvin was telling us about his NS stories. OMGGG! Damn interesting can? I feel like signing on now. Haha! But for girls, instead of 3 months BMT, its a whole year. Noooo! Thats practically all i did today luh. Yep yep.

Not feeling very well though. Supposed to go for rehearsals this morning. But i had stomach upset. I think its from the spoilt rice? Or maybe its the prawns. But seriously. I pity myself. I dont get food at home. And when i do, they are 'rotten'. BOOOOO!

Im such a night person. Like its 1248am now. And i feel like playing basketball. Or roller blading. Or i dont know. Just being out. I guess i prefer the nights cause its dark and i like the dark. And its also cool as compared to the scorching heat you have to face in the day. And there are lesser people in the night so its more peaceful. And the roads are wayyyy emptier. Yepp. I think thats about it.

Anyways, lunch for grandmas birthday tomorrow much? Still deciding if i should go. Now im not talking to both granny and daddy. Argh.

2010-04-09T15:43:00.002+08:00

Oh by the way,
Happy belated 18th birtday YIXIUU!
I LOVE YOU!!
Will see you when school reopens. ;)

And to Siva,
Happy 21st dude!

2010-04-09T15:32:00.003+08:00

Alors blogging im encore une fois. En français cette fois. Pourquoi? Haha je ne sais pas .. cause theres rien à faire? Yay im parler à un nouvel ami en ce moment. Et il est mignon! Pas de correction. Il le long avec tous ses amis sont mignons! Yayness.

Clubbing beaucoup plus tard? Mais IVE que j'ai dix dollars sur moi.

À l'heure actuelle, trois choses sont en cours d'exécution dans mon esprit. L'alcool, la musique et lui. Honey tu me manques oh si fort. Et id souhaite juste que tu me donner cette chance. S'il vous plaît ..?

J'ai une dent sucrée grands maintenant. Im envie de fudge au chocolat gâteau!

2010-04-08T15:23:00.003+08:00

BEWAFA!
I wanna go clubbing!

I know i shouldnt.
But im missing you every single minute and second of each and everyday.
I need a miracle.

2010-04-08T15:04:00.000+08:00

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again...

Wont let you get away-ay- say if we ever meet again.

2010-04-06T15:53:00.003+08:00

Went roller blading yesterday.

Right now, the thing that matters most is my heart. I dont want to give it away. Not just like that. Wish there was a way to erase those awful memories.

2010-04-03T17:30:00.001+08:00

Right now...i need proper advice. I really really do. I need all the help i can get. Cause this is a tough nut to crack.

2010-04-03T17:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIJAY!
You are one of the mosstttt AWESOMEEEE people i know.
Cheers to all the rocking times we've had.
I love you!
=)

2010-04-03T15:21:00.002+08:00

Try...just TRY having a mosquito bite under your feet. It sucks! Cause you'll need to scratch it. But when you do, you feel both pain and itchyness. OMGGG! Cannot take it. Cannot take it. Cannot take it.

Anyways drank with Ash yesterday. I got high. Was supposed to go to UE square and meet Logan and all to drink but i didnt. Was too high. This whole week, my body has been running 25% on food and 75% on alcohol. Now, i MUST go out at night and i MUST have alcohol. I think im getting addicted. Shucks.

Im happy that at least we talked for a minute and 6 seconds yesterday.
And im also happy that Mr Guru decided to call and talk to me yesterday. Sorry im not always that available.

2010-04-02T20:21:00.001+08:00

Okay so ive not been eating ever since you know what. And by right, im supposed to get gastric. But guess what...i dont have it. But i am sick.

2010-04-02T16:51:00.004+08:00

Baby you know that i miss
you
I wanna get with you
tonight but i cannot
babyboy
and thats the issue
boy u know i miss you
i just wanna kiss you

Text me, call me, i need u in my life
yeah
all that, everyday i need ya
and everytime i see ya my feelings
get deeper
i miss ya i miss ya
i really wanna kiss ya

2010-04-02T16:22:00.002+08:00

much ado about nothing

2010-04-01T16:52:00.003+08:00

You know...what kept running through my head when it all happened was my life long dream. To just run. Run and not stop till i get hit by a car and slowly bleed to death. Cause the pain was too much for me to handle. And i simply wanted to put a stop to it. A stop to the pain. I somehow think ill do it soon. I dont know when. But just soon. Im sorry.

I just dont know what and who to believe.

2010-03-31T13:27:00.001+08:00

I have the most number of mosquito bites im telling you!
Anyways, the problem is more complicated
And thanks guys for cheering me up..
And Thiru too

2010-03-31T04:28:00.002+08:00

Yay...Thiru cheered me up. He definitely made me feel wayy better. Thank you soo much! =)

2010-03-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

This feeling, it hurts so much. Lost something i thought i never had. How stupid could i have been? I Suck.

2010-03-30T17:04:00.003+08:00

Oh my god. Im such a bitch! It was real....it was really really real.

2010-03-30T03:12:00.003+08:00

25 hours of nightmare
Should have left early in the morning
But how was i to know?
That flames really do turn to dust?
Feels like my soul died in my body
Therapy for the heart anyone?

2010-03-28T01:05:00.002+08:00

Ended up watching cop out. Hung out with NC for a while after the movie. Cute guy took my number. Cabbed down to Clarke Quay. Bumped into Anna. Drank. Drunk. DRAMA! Left Clarke Quay around 6ish. Trained to Sembawang. Was early so i slept in Coffee Bean while waiting for Nathan. Went for drama rehearsal. Made new friends once again. Haha. Then lunched with Nathan. Mutton briyani and milo dinosaur with whipped cream! Mhmmmm yummy! Hung out with Nathan. Had fun. Went home. Slept for a while. Headed down to Edgar's 21st birthday. Then met Divya and the clique(Deva, Yuwa, Sathies, Brenden and Kryan) at OCC for bowling since Kryan was going back to Australia for a while. Othniel gave me a ride home. Thank you! And now...im gonna meet a friend. =)

2010-03-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

Im at Starbucks with NC. Gonna catch the book of Eli later. Stalker guy is scary. Really. Okay nothing to blog about. Bye!