Wednesday, January 5, 2011
1:51 AM

For the first time ever, im saying this and really really really meaning it from the bottom of my heart...i put on a happy face on the outside, but deep inside im truly crying my heart out cause it hurts that much.

I worry all the time. About you. Dating other girls. Getting to know girlsss. Crushing on someone else. Getting hurt..emotionally and physically. Hating the NS life. Not being happy or satisfied with anything. People pissing you off. You feeling upset. You not seeing the doctor when you are sick. Speeding. Overdosage of barons and still not getting drunk. Yes i worry about you all the time. I wish you were here right now with me. Cause i need you badly. And also so that i can take care of you and know that you are alright. I wish i had the power...the power to turn my thoughts into reality.

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