Thursday, November 25, 2010
12:32 AM
I was having a bad day on Tuesday. But my favourite ladies cheered me up. Thanks loves! <3
Oh man whyy? Whyy? Why do we have to make choices in life. They say the most important decisions in life are always the hardest. You know what? Its true! I broke up with Siva. Okay WE broke up. May 16 2010. Its like almost 5 months now and im not a single bit over him. Yes ive gone out on dates, yes ive flirted with other guys. But none of it is working. I miss Siva sooo much and want him back. No one is ever gonna be as good as he is. And im confidently saying this not cause ive not met others out there but because ive already been out with many guys on dates and none of them reached out to me. There are like say 4-5 SINCERE guys who are after me. All very very nice. Boy friend material and all. But..i dont like them. I love Siva. Sigh. Siva, Siva, Siva. I miss you baby. :( Wish i could just show you how much ive changed. I bet you'd be so proud of me.
Don't you ever think how some things are kinda weird? Like...i lost them and went through a lot, emotionally and mentally. Then Siva came into the picture and left. And now that hes gone, i think he made me become what i am today: a better person like idk like there was a reason for him to come into my life and that was to teach me to become a better person? And then now that im..managing in life, comes back and it feels nice...comfortable..cause ive missed you soooo much but sometimes it feels weird cause...i dont know it WAS a year and a half. No its not a bad thing. Its a good thing. A good feeling. I guess its just the time luh. Its weird how time really heals stuff.
Like sometimes when i think of the phrase lifes a bitch or time heals and all, i find myself in a state of shock cause you know people always say these stuff and we hear it and feel nothing? Its different when you go through it cause then u know that all these cliche lines and all are really true.
