Wednesday, March 17, 2010
3:19 AM
HEY HO!
I like talking to you. No im not crushing on you. But i do like talking to you. You are funny and sacarstic and...charming all at once. Not forgetting your nice smile. You look like Channing Tatum to me. Plus you entertain me. Teehee! My ex crush. ;)
Im confused. Im getting used to not talking to you though i do miss you but its not as much? Is that a good or a bad thing? And i see you are moving on aye? Well its a good thing had my fair share of fun and i never fell deep into the dark hole of your trap. Was always on the surface. Just in case i got hurt again. But you know what? You are without a doubt 100% AWESOMEE and honestly i'd give to have an encore of those few months again. Where my life revolved around you and almost you only. I do love you. But to a certain extent. Hey we both are flirts after all right? Im just serious when i get into a relationship whereas you are the total opposite.
Oh my god! The drama group. I sooo want it. A total dream come true much! Plus i already know so many of you there. Peter Pan. =) Ill think about it. ;)
Jess told me i should tell her the truth. But how? I know she wont agree to it although im happy with the way things are. Really. Right now...im happy with my life. Except for the not having anything to do especially when im broke part. But i really am. Blessed with wonderful friends. Have been partying almost every night. Though i know Din isnt happy with it. But sighh ill discuss it with him...with them and see how things goes. I really want her to know about it too.
Having one or two guys liking you can be very flattering. Having many can be an issue. And thats exactly how i feel. Really. A lil bit of headache having these guys messaging me almost all the time. Like hello! I need my space. Maybe this is a sign. Maybe im just not ready for a relationship. And yes by the way, ive decided. I dont have to have a boyfriend in my last teenage year. I want to enjoy my last teen year being single and partying till the roosters does its 'cock-a-doodle-doo' in the dawn. Yes! I still have 3 months before i turn 19 though. God im growing up fast! I dont mind having a relationship during these three months. Part time boyfriends anyone?
Aights im going to bed. My eyes are betraying me. Sad sad.
Adioz!
